The past couple of days, I've been sewing like crazy and watching Dead Like Me.I have to say, I am REALLY enjoying this show. I'm really wondering why it got cancelled after two seasons though. It's so sad to see quality television like that go, and reality shows like The Jersey Shore come in. Peoples' interests these days have gotten so skewed, and the entertainment industry has to swoop down to their level to spark their interest. Those who enjoy that quality entertainment have to suffer. There's not many of those people left because they probably all gave in.
Anyway, I'm rambling. No need to get into that kind of discussion now.

As the days are closing in, I'm trying to accomplish as much as I can before classes start. I want my break to last longer; I'm not ready to be bombarded with work. But at the same time, I DO want it to come. I want it to come and go. Aside from the sewing and watching, I've been coming closer to what I can do to make myself happier. When I did the math last semester for how many more years of schooling I'd need to accomplish, I felt so far from my dreams.

I'm not saying my first two years of college were a waste, but it feels like it sometimes. It held me back. Now here I am in my fourth year finishing up my second associates degree. I feel like I've been idle. I see all friends and acquaintances moving forward, graduating this year. But here I am still sitting in the same school ready to go on to my bachelors: another two years. Six years I'll be in the same school. Six. I feel like a super-senior. I am beyond irritated. But then again, if I didn't go down this path, I would have never concluded what direction and career I want. I guess this delay has given me a chance to think things over. And the more I think about it, the more it falls into place.

Things are starting to make sense and as each day passes, I'm getting closer to achieving my dreams. Yeah, everyone has obstacles to overcome, but I'm just anxious to jump over all of them. Two and a half more years I can go to graduate school. Two and a half more years I imagine is where my life will start: the subject I'll be focusing on, a new location, and leaving all my bad memories behind. I look forward to starting over. It's something I've been dreaming of for a long time, and finally it's looking promising.

I'm absolutely thrilled that good things are finally headed my way, but at the same time, I'm terrified. I'm afraid to go down my new path alone, but I know it'll make me stronger.
Two and a half years is quite a bit of time, so I'm stressing over something that I have time to worry about, I know. I just like looking ahead to make sure things go my way. And if not, I'll have enough time to push it in the direction I want them to go. I'm just afraid of what will come; the unknown. Fear of the unknown, I guess. I guess we'll see what happens!

Random thoughts and rambles, but it feels good to get out what I'm trying to express in writing.

Haven't had a "Wishlist Wednesday" post in a while.
I thought I would make this a shoe wishlist. I wish I could just splurge and buy all of these!

01. Trip Oxfords from Wanted. I love oxfords and platforms, and seeing them both together makes me super happy.
02. Amazing Platforms by Jeffrey Campbell. I'm not big into most Jeffrey Campbell shoes, but he knows how to design platforms that spark my interest.
03. Suebee by Jeffrey Campbell. Another JC pair that I love! They're classy, and platforms once again! I've been dying to find a Mary Jane like style in platform form, and these are perfect.
04. Page 8 Eye Boots in both Black and Cherry Red by Dr Martens. I've been all about everything velvet lately, and these are classic Docs that satisfy my cravings.
05. Grey Black Creepers by T.U.K. I love creepers and I love them in grey, just as these are.

Oh man, I really need to go shoe shopping, right now.

I've always loved cult classics. As I've gotten older, I've discovered more classics and my appreciation for them have grown. About a year ago, I finally got around to watching all of Twin Peaks, and I was instantly hooked.

The entertainment industry is usually my inspiration for any and all art I do, whether it's for a school assignment or a project I'm working on in my spare time. What I listen to and what I watch play a role in what I make, and I don't think that will ever change.
When I get assigned a project in school, my mind instantly thinks of a movie I can relate it to or pay tribute to.

Last semester for my typography class, our final project was to create three posters using different mediums for each. My mind jumped to Twin Peaks. All different kinds of ideas popped in my head and I was so thrilled to start it.

The first one is my favorite. I love doing collage + decoupage projects. I used magazines and tissue paper.
The second one is all colored pencil and a little bit of marker.
The third is acrylic paint. I edited it on Photoshop because it looked really sloppy scanned in. I'd definitely like to touch this one up in the future.

I'm happy with these. Definitely shows my appreciation for the wonderful show. I surely recommend it to those who haven't watched it.

Ever since I created this blog, I was anxious to get it up and running and looking spectacular. I was in a rush to get it looking professional, but I just couldn't get past a certain point. Then I slowed down and thought about it. I'll have this blog for a long time, so I'll have plenty of time to perfect it. It'll come together when it's meant to come together. Whenever I have an idea of what to work on at a specific moment, it'll come to me. Even though I would like to make it look presentable as soon as possible, the fact of the matter is that it was presentable. It just didn't look the way I wanted the final product to look like.

For a good few week, I thought of new blog names that says a lot about me and was catchy. Out popped a good one, and with approval from friends, I changed the blog name and URL. From there, it led me to think of some sort of logo to create. I came up with an idea to use a rocket, and it flowed. I made a curlicue rocket logo, and then drew together the rest. I scanned it into my computer today, fixed it up in Photoshop, added a texture in the background, and it was finished!

I like blogs having an overall light colored theme, so I followed that. It's a simple layout with a nice header. The point is that I'm getting it closer to something that I can be happy with. One step closer to a finished layout. And I guess I wanted to share my excitement. I feel like I'm moving forward, and that's a great feeling. Obviously I'm not experiencing some sort of "revelation", but something close to it with more of a feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction.

It makes me a little nervous/bummed/anxious that this time next week I'll be getting myself ready for class that will be coming the following day. This winter break just sped by. I have to say, I am looking forward to going back, but I'm dreading what weather will be coming and how uncomfortable the commute may be. Oh, I forgot about the commute - spending an hour on a train to bring me to the big city. I might be dreading that hour commute the most.

For now, I need to get my mind off of it and get the most I can out of this week. I have a few pleasant plans coming up.

I really should wear these shoes now that they're finished. My grandmother gave these to me; they are definitely old lady shoes. They needed spicing up.
They were originally all black. I used red Tulip fabric paint, which you can find in your local craft store. Also went the extra step and studded them. That was a lot more difficult than I thought it'd be, but I made it work.

I've been in a weird, funky mood all day. I think the only song I can listen to today is B-52's Rock Lobster.

I've been in a big pillow making mood recently. I made two in the past month so far, but I have ideas and plans for more. I'm only getting started!

Here's one that I finished up yesterday. The orange was an old shirt of mine, and the plaid backing was an old pair of pants.

Before Christmas rolled around, my brother told me all he wanted for Christmas was for me to make him a pillow. He had a hoodie that didn't fit comfortably anymore, but he didn't want to get rid of it. He like the print on it, so I offered to make him a pillow. He uses it all the time now. My father loved it so much too that he asked I make him one.

I'm running out of stuffing. Definitely going to have to buy more being that I'm on a roll with this pillow making phase!

And my song of the moment - Elastica! It really doesn't fit my mellow mood at the moment, but this song always gets me up and jumpin'.

Turns out my computer problems are more serious than I thought. I've had my desktop for over six years, and only needed to get it repaired once. It hurts me to know that I may need to part ways with my computer and get a new one. I haven't quite figured out what move I want to make yet, but in the meantime I'm going to have to get reacquainted with my laptop. Hopefully I'll get this problem all sorted before the new semester starts.

Anyway, to keep my mind off of my dilemma, I decided to fill in my hand made books. I play around here and there, but I did some intense gluing and coloring today.
Page 10, in my 001. Under The Milky Way art journal.

I had this page done for a few months now, but as the weeks go by I'll obviously post more pages.
But for today, I'll keep this post short. I plan on calling it a day soon and sleep my frustrations off.
Hope you all have a wonderful night.